Wednesday, April 23, 2003
hes gone
Sunday, April 20, 2003
he's dying. he doesnt even look or sound like him anymore. my poppi. hes soo brilliant and amazing. and he is just suffering now. its soo terrible. my dad is soo broken up about it. i spent the whole day huggin steve. he cried with me. ive never lost anyone that close to me but the prospect of this is heartbreaking. my poor dad. sigh. :o(
easter at grandmas. 21 people. really good food. really loud kids. stress and weirdness. sadness.
tears. worry. about everything. term paper. job interview. everything worries me. i havent left the house and hung out with everyone since Dreamcatcher. i feel better about myself but i cant bring myself to get back into being with people. i feel stuck. im afraid. what happens when we lose poppi? what will happen to me with my life? if you can call wat i have a life....everything scares me.
i have to write to danny again. hehe. he wants me to send a pic. that could be disastrous. how marty from grease of me. i have a boy in the service. haha.
i feel so uneasy. so uncertain. so alone and so afraid. i need help. i need something. i need someone!
"go the distance" "if you build it, he will come" "ease his pain"
easter at grandmas. 21 people. really good food. really loud kids. stress and weirdness. sadness.
tears. worry. about everything. term paper. job interview. everything worries me. i havent left the house and hung out with everyone since Dreamcatcher. i feel better about myself but i cant bring myself to get back into being with people. i feel stuck. im afraid. what happens when we lose poppi? what will happen to me with my life? if you can call wat i have a life....everything scares me.
i have to write to danny again. hehe. he wants me to send a pic. that could be disastrous. how marty from grease of me. i have a boy in the service. haha.
i feel so uneasy. so uncertain. so alone and so afraid. i need help. i need something. i need someone!
"go the distance" "if you build it, he will come" "ease his pain"
