Take Me On Your Mighty Wings Across the Sky

they want to send me to talk to someone. doesnt work. they want me to go to a guidance counselor. they want me to talk to them. they want to know whats wrong. whats eating away at me. why i dont go out anymore. why im always home. why im always in my room. i dont know what to say to them. ive told them of how ive been burned. ive told them more this year than theyve ever known about me. they know how ive been hurt. and they act like im so invincible i can just shake it off. well i cant. im strong enough, but i cant handle this sometimes. they wanna know why my life consists of going to school and nothing more. they think i hate everyone. they think that all i tell them is that people, all people i know, suck. i dont hate anyone at all. i dont, not single a person. they said i look like shit. well i guess they mean more like shit than before. they said i look like death. they said im all hunched over and that i dont take care of myself. they say i tell them nothing. that i dont give a shit about anyone, anything, or myself. i said that i have to deal with everything im going thru,and the fact that im sure about everything im going thru, they badgering me to chat and talk and tell them how i feel doesnt help. it makes things worse. because im unsure, another reason they think i need help. im terrified about my life. yeh i am. and i know things need to change. but i need things to get taken care of in my head, first. i have to be ok with all the basic stuff about me and my life. they dont understand. and before anyone else likes me and i start hanging out with people again, i have to like and believe in myself. and its really been hard to do that lately. the best friends ive ever had, are gone. for good. everyone else has a guy now. and im the onli one. an odd man out to the core. leaving me with no guys no group. no prom. i cant even find a single person to just hang out with. seriously. nobody. they want me to go out but i dont have anywhere to go. no one to share anything with. i tell them wats goin on generally in my life. and even more. but i dont have anyone to call when i need them or when i just need to be with someone. i read this Libra thing, saying that as i libra my main passion is friendship and that i need to have people around. if not, im depressed. sometimes, a lot recently. they asked me that i always look like im gonna cry that i always look sad. they asked me when was the last time i smiled. i couldnt even answer them. not at all. i need to makeover myself. not my appearance, cuz thats just retched. but i need to like makeover my soul. i need people in my life who care about me. i feel lost. i dunno. im not sure about anything anymore. nothing at all. i need something. i wish i had someone to talk to . someone i could confide in. i feel soo lost. like the whirlwinds of dante. i feel hurt and alone and i walk thru school feelin like no one cares. i know they dont. i dont want them to talk to me about this anymore! i need something. i gotta take care of myself now. that i now. that comes first. hehe. one day ill be alrite. yup. everyone has someone in their life. why cant i? i still believe that itll all work out but this is going on for a long time. im a pretty decent girl if someone actually took the risk and got to know me.

"it cant rain all the time"