Thursday, July 25, 2002
i dont know what to do anymore. my heart is tired. "i know you've got the scars to prove it" i dont wanna subject myself to anymore of this shit. theres a time when i just gotta stop it. because its all one sided, until i get hurt. then there are plenty of people to dish out that emotion. ive got enough pain to spare. "im running out of pain" i really dont think its fair. ive grown up alot after this trip, perhaps too much. ive realized alot and been put thru a lot more. im just scarred. well, fuck that. "i turn around and pick up the pieces" "barely treading water knowing i will not give... i will not give up" im not gonna let people who dont care about me at all have this much power of my emotions. im too tired to talk anymore. im writing to a void. i feel really messed up rite now. ive been really liking myself lately. well that just got shot down when i had to cry myself to sleep last nite.
"il pleure dans mon coeur comme il pleure sur la ville"
"il pleure dans mon coeur comme il pleure sur la ville"
"Open Your Eyes"
When I look into your eyes
I see a lot of hate
Pushing me away
You're haunted by a past
A past that brings you down
So you throw it all away
Again
Just try to find a place deep within your soul
And don't deny the child living deep inside
Open your eyes and find
This life's better than you know
It's in your hands now
Just open up your eyes
Deep inside of your mind
You're forced to believe
That nothing's gonna change
So I take you by the hand
And I lead you to a place
A place of happiness
Like this
12 stones
...My Tears...
"Running Out Of Pain"
As he raises his hand you begin to understand
That no love is worth the hate that you feel
Now you're running out of pain
And all these feelings feel the same
So you close your eyes and wish it all away
And I lie awake and I try to say
Anything I know just to ease your pain
But you hide away where no one can see
And it's only you that can set you free
Now the time has come again
So you reach deep down within
To find the strength that you have buried there
As you turn to walk away you can still hear him say
You'll never make it in this world alone
You try to fight (you try to fight)
You hide the pain (you hide the pain)
You walk away (never again)
12 stones
When I look into your eyes
I see a lot of hate
Pushing me away
You're haunted by a past
A past that brings you down
So you throw it all away
Again
Just try to find a place deep within your soul
And don't deny the child living deep inside
Open your eyes and find
This life's better than you know
It's in your hands now
Just open up your eyes
Deep inside of your mind
You're forced to believe
That nothing's gonna change
So I take you by the hand
And I lead you to a place
A place of happiness
Like this
12 stones
...My Tears...
"Running Out Of Pain"
As he raises his hand you begin to understand
That no love is worth the hate that you feel
Now you're running out of pain
And all these feelings feel the same
So you close your eyes and wish it all away
And I lie awake and I try to say
Anything I know just to ease your pain
But you hide away where no one can see
And it's only you that can set you free
Now the time has come again
So you reach deep down within
To find the strength that you have buried there
As you turn to walk away you can still hear him say
You'll never make it in this world alone
You try to fight (you try to fight)
You hide the pain (you hide the pain)
You walk away (never again)
12 stones
"Open Your Eyes"
When I look into your eyes
I see a lot of hate
Pushing me away
You're haunted by a past
A past that brings you down
So you throw it all away
Again
Just try to find a place deep within your soul
And don't deny the child living deep inside
Open your eyes and find
This life's better than you know
It's in your hands now
Just open up your eyes
Deep inside of your mind
You're forced to believe
That nothing's gonna change
So I take you by the hand
And I lead you to a place
A place of happiness
Like this
12 stones
...My Tears...
"Running Out Of Pain"
As he raises his hand you begin to understand
That no love is worth the hate that you feel
Now you're running out of pain
And all these feelings feel the same
So you close your eyes and wish it all away
And I lie awake and I try to say
Anything I know just to ease your pain
But you hide away where no one can see
And it's only you that can set you free
Now the time has come again
So you reach deep down within
To find the strength that you have buried there
As you turn to walk away you can still hear him say
You'll never make it in this world alone
You try to fight (you try to fight)
You hide the pain (you hide the pain)
You walk away (never again)
12 stones
When I look into your eyes
I see a lot of hate
Pushing me away
You're haunted by a past
A past that brings you down
So you throw it all away
Again
Just try to find a place deep within your soul
And don't deny the child living deep inside
Open your eyes and find
This life's better than you know
It's in your hands now
Just open up your eyes
Deep inside of your mind
You're forced to believe
That nothing's gonna change
So I take you by the hand
And I lead you to a place
A place of happiness
Like this
12 stones
...My Tears...
"Running Out Of Pain"
As he raises his hand you begin to understand
That no love is worth the hate that you feel
Now you're running out of pain
And all these feelings feel the same
So you close your eyes and wish it all away
And I lie awake and I try to say
Anything I know just to ease your pain
But you hide away where no one can see
And it's only you that can set you free
Now the time has come again
So you reach deep down within
To find the strength that you have buried there
As you turn to walk away you can still hear him say
You'll never make it in this world alone
You try to fight (you try to fight)
You hide the pain (you hide the pain)
You walk away (never again)
12 stones
