Saturday, January 12, 2002
im realli tired and everything but ok...ill try to make sense.... i have so much friggin work but its not phasing me at all...its like 1230 and i decided that since i cant sleep....ill go online post and do sum french homework....ooo lala...
today was weird on many many levels...i cant rely comment on anything cuz im kinda confused...but my relationships with a certain few boys are realli great and thats wat keep me happy....thats the onli thing missin from my life i think....a boy of my very own haha...
"woman are you blind" no mom i saw the cute cashier in shop rite staring at me" and altho i dont have a fraction of the guts needed to go up and talk to him i felt happy...but theres two guys who are realli special rite now...:sighs with content:: yeh i think im happy, hmm, too confused...its all too clouded.
i went over to jackies rite after skoo but with dissapointmen bc paul couldnt get us the tickets the moron was supposed to give them to his aunt ms lily and he didnt so we must went to themall went online, rented movies and went to the A&P for MUNCHIES>>>AHAHA..,..it was fun anyway....
im gonna pass out ill comment more later on...when im coherent..if its possible
today was weird on many many levels...i cant rely comment on anything cuz im kinda confused...but my relationships with a certain few boys are realli great and thats wat keep me happy....thats the onli thing missin from my life i think....a boy of my very own haha...
"woman are you blind" no mom i saw the cute cashier in shop rite staring at me" and altho i dont have a fraction of the guts needed to go up and talk to him i felt happy...but theres two guys who are realli special rite now...:sighs with content:: yeh i think im happy, hmm, too confused...its all too clouded.
i went over to jackies rite after skoo but with dissapointmen bc paul couldnt get us the tickets the moron was supposed to give them to his aunt ms lily and he didnt so we must went to themall went online, rented movies and went to the A&P for MUNCHIES>>>AHAHA..,..it was fun anyway....
im gonna pass out ill comment more later on...when im coherent..if its possible
Monday, January 07, 2002
ahhhhhh.....::deep sighs:: things are good.... my presentation on Macbeth went surprisingly well, even tho my knees were kinda knockin and i know that my voice was shakin like madd....o well...and i got a 100 on my history test and thats always good...mr spikes such a piece of work, haha, he spilled the coffee...jackie he came to visit !! shes gotta be happy now...anyway momentarily, i doubt find it smart for me to use periods cuz my thoughts come and go and abruptly stop and continue soo yeh....sorri to those gramma nuts out there. so wat else...hahah friday on the bus was fuckin awesome man, i almost thru the backpack out the window, had i not been wrestled to the ground....ha funni pics from the front of hte bus lil kim... tj was drivin behind us in a piece of shit, so he calls it....cuz the bus is chalk full of faggots...these are direct quotes...saturday i went to my sisters game to watch her cheer she likes the support i hate the cheerleaders, ha who'da thunk it. i met this semi-cute kid and of course his name is mike, god forbid there are any cute guys not named mike, but goin along my track record he will either think hes black or eat glue. hmm. and i was talkin to a teacher from OLV who mentioned her amazingly hott son who comes to games every once in a while, so that put a coupla sparks in a pretti blah day.... i tried to get together with sum friends, or at least thats wat i told my parents.... ya kno its a definite downfall to lie well, you catch urself onli after you've dug urself six feet under in lies... thatll be attacked later. sunday i saw the mysterious mike again. but i also saw "THE ED".
ive found alotta refuge in music lately, which is good cuz i cant find it anywhere else. im lookin foward to the battle of the bands on saturday!! now before even askin him, michelle of course goes o i dont think john can go...its like a automatic response when john is invited anywhere...but thats a whole nother fucked up ball game....
i was major anxious and excited cuz i wanted to see my gut reaction to "gym" and lo and behold i was still confused.. jackie of course makes the snide remark, wat the fucka are you obsessing over, you like him , get over it" but its been a while since ive had a legitimate crush on anyone, the last one being pat, ugh! and crushes permit a certain level of saftey. the secrecy, i guess... the "omigod he touched me " syndrome which i fall victim too majorly.... today in math.....awww, i enjoyed it. hes adorable but i must keep an eye on my staring....haha...thats totally a problem for me and a few other peoplez. and in eighth i strolled in with big ol stary eyes and a dumbfounded lok on my face and i was just like " yup i like him" and we giggled and shit.... good old michelle had english rite acroos the hallfrom me with him and we decided to "GO say hi to michelle" ha yeh rite... and he was walkin in rite in fronta me and jackie seriously like threw me foward and i landed ON him...haha...it was funni and i acted all madd and shit at her and then ran into english and hugged her and kept sayin thank you he was sooo flirty all day and everything... crushes well mine anyway always bring heartache at the end but its just more of a realization that o yeh just another one that doesnt like ya, not a downrite asshole rejection or such a hurtful comment that you crumble onto the floor in a thousand pieces....well anyway (hoobastank) i "turn around and pick up the pieces"
its a crush...."new cuts cover where the old ones are" ---part of me linkin park.... shit happens
ill wait for a happy ending...ill wait for love, but it seems that itll never happen....
my spirits are never fully wilted tho....theres always "sumthing" that revive them sumwat and allow me to go on for one more day.... i think that its sumthing inside of me "part of me i feel it everyday i feel i made i made my way i feel it swell it upside swell up inside swallowing me....." that drives me to keep going....i cant rely on other people, it doesnt work they dont pull thru and those that would the few arent close enuff....
im havin a pc problem so im posting ill fix it later and add on an ending
ive found alotta refuge in music lately, which is good cuz i cant find it anywhere else. im lookin foward to the battle of the bands on saturday!! now before even askin him, michelle of course goes o i dont think john can go...its like a automatic response when john is invited anywhere...but thats a whole nother fucked up ball game....
i was major anxious and excited cuz i wanted to see my gut reaction to "gym" and lo and behold i was still confused.. jackie of course makes the snide remark, wat the fucka are you obsessing over, you like him , get over it" but its been a while since ive had a legitimate crush on anyone, the last one being pat, ugh! and crushes permit a certain level of saftey. the secrecy, i guess... the "omigod he touched me " syndrome which i fall victim too majorly.... today in math.....awww, i enjoyed it. hes adorable but i must keep an eye on my staring....haha...thats totally a problem for me and a few other peoplez. and in eighth i strolled in with big ol stary eyes and a dumbfounded lok on my face and i was just like " yup i like him" and we giggled and shit.... good old michelle had english rite acroos the hallfrom me with him and we decided to "GO say hi to michelle" ha yeh rite... and he was walkin in rite in fronta me and jackie seriously like threw me foward and i landed ON him...haha...it was funni and i acted all madd and shit at her and then ran into english and hugged her and kept sayin thank you he was sooo flirty all day and everything... crushes well mine anyway always bring heartache at the end but its just more of a realization that o yeh just another one that doesnt like ya, not a downrite asshole rejection or such a hurtful comment that you crumble onto the floor in a thousand pieces....well anyway (hoobastank) i "turn around and pick up the pieces"
its a crush...."new cuts cover where the old ones are" ---part of me linkin park.... shit happens
ill wait for a happy ending...ill wait for love, but it seems that itll never happen....
my spirits are never fully wilted tho....theres always "sumthing" that revive them sumwat and allow me to go on for one more day.... i think that its sumthing inside of me "part of me i feel it everyday i feel i made i made my way i feel it swell it upside swell up inside swallowing me....." that drives me to keep going....i cant rely on other people, it doesnt work they dont pull thru and those that would the few arent close enuff....
im havin a pc problem so im posting ill fix it later and add on an ending
